WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:02.530 align:middle line:84% - What were the first things in retrospect 00:00:02.530 --> 00:00:08.330 align:middle line:84% looking back that started happening that you now 00:00:08.330 --> 00:00:10.170 align:middle line:90% know we're crossing the line? 00:00:10.170 --> 00:00:12.230 align:middle line:84% He started grooming you while your mother was 00:00:12.230 --> 00:00:16.470 align:middle line:84% around then when he got you alone, 00:00:16.470 --> 00:00:20.350 align:middle line:84% what did he start doing that caused-- 00:00:20.350 --> 00:00:24.160 align:middle line:84% as you look back now, you know we're crossing the line. 00:00:24.160 --> 00:00:28.720 align:middle line:84% And again, I'm not asking for details here but what did-- 00:00:28.720 --> 00:00:33.533 align:middle line:84% what started happening that you now know was crossing the line? 00:00:33.533 --> 00:00:36.740 align:middle line:90% - The touching. 00:00:36.740 --> 00:00:38.450 align:middle line:84% I mean, he was also putting drugs in my food 00:00:38.450 --> 00:00:40.925 align:middle line:84% too so that was kind of part of the conditioning. 00:00:40.925 --> 00:00:43.595 align:middle line:84% - OK and what drugs was he putting in your food? 00:00:43.595 --> 00:00:45.550 align:middle line:90% - Crack, cocaine. 00:00:45.550 --> 00:00:47.000 align:middle line:90% - Yeah. 00:00:47.000 --> 00:00:49.070 align:middle line:90% And what was he putting it in? 00:00:49.070 --> 00:00:52.900 align:middle line:90% - I-- whatever I was being fed. 00:00:52.900 --> 00:00:55.450 align:middle line:84% I mean, I'd imagine it was like cookies 00:00:55.450 --> 00:00:56.905 align:middle line:90% or whatever he was giving me. 00:00:56.905 --> 00:00:58.480 align:middle line:90% - Yeah. 00:00:58.480 --> 00:01:00.080 align:middle line:84% So he was drugging you with crack. 00:01:00.080 --> 00:01:00.880 align:middle line:90% - Yeah. 00:01:00.880 --> 00:01:05.740 align:middle line:84% - And did you get to the point that he would get you 00:01:05.740 --> 00:01:07.510 align:middle line:84% in an altered state of consciousness 00:01:07.510 --> 00:01:09.100 align:middle line:90% where you were actually high? 00:01:09.100 --> 00:01:10.165 align:middle line:90% - Oh yeah. 00:01:10.165 --> 00:01:12.775 align:middle line:90% - It was substantial, correct? 00:01:12.775 --> 00:01:14.350 align:middle line:90% - Yeah. 00:01:14.350 --> 00:01:17.110 align:middle line:84% I like to call it comfortably numb. 00:01:17.110 --> 00:01:18.370 align:middle line:90% - Yeah. 00:01:18.370 --> 00:01:19.645 align:middle line:90% So you were zoned out? 00:01:19.645 --> 00:01:20.740 align:middle line:90% - Yeah. 00:01:20.740 --> 00:01:24.610 align:middle line:84% OK and I think this is important for people 00:01:24.610 --> 00:01:30.130 align:middle line:84% to realize when you're 10, you don't have 00:01:30.130 --> 00:01:32.425 align:middle line:90% anything to compare this to. 00:01:32.425 --> 00:01:37.460 align:middle line:90% - I really don't remember even-- 00:01:37.460 --> 00:01:39.715 align:middle line:84% I guess realizing what was going on. 00:01:39.715 --> 00:01:42.680 align:middle line:84% - I don't know why you-- how would you because like I say, 00:01:42.680 --> 00:01:45.620 align:middle line:84% you don't have a yardstick to measure that to say, 00:01:45.620 --> 00:01:47.360 align:middle line:90% this is OK, this is not OK. 00:01:47.360 --> 00:01:49.160 align:middle line:90% There's no way to-- 00:01:49.160 --> 00:01:51.710 align:middle line:84% there's no point of reference I guess is what I'm saying. 00:01:51.710 --> 00:01:52.730 align:middle line:90% - Yeah, there is no-- 00:01:52.730 --> 00:01:55.840 align:middle line:90% 00:01:55.840 --> 00:02:00.250 align:middle line:84% after a while, I was told stories about previous kids 00:02:00.250 --> 00:02:03.220 align:middle line:84% and what had happened if they said anything. 00:02:03.220 --> 00:02:05.500 align:middle line:84% I know my mom was threatened like he 00:02:05.500 --> 00:02:08.110 align:middle line:84% threatened to do stuff to my mom if I 00:02:08.110 --> 00:02:10.360 align:middle line:90% was to say what was going on. 00:02:10.360 --> 00:02:14.990 align:middle line:84% And I don't know, after a while, it just-- it was normal I 00:02:14.990 --> 00:02:18.221 align:middle line:90% guess, what was happening. 00:02:18.221 --> 00:02:21.760 align:middle line:84% - Because it does get to be habitual 00:02:21.760 --> 00:02:27.550 align:middle line:84% and he told you, if whatever happened when he started 00:02:27.550 --> 00:02:32.840 align:middle line:84% to violate you personally, violate your body, 00:02:32.840 --> 00:02:37.790 align:middle line:90% which was clearly molestation. 00:02:37.790 --> 00:02:40.930 align:middle line:84% He told you if you shared this with anybody, if you told 00:02:40.930 --> 00:02:42.505 align:middle line:90% anybody, what would happen? 00:02:42.505 --> 00:02:45.510 align:middle line:90% - That he's killed my mom. 00:02:45.510 --> 00:02:50.000 align:middle line:90%